Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Who Am I?
"Some people are carbon copies, other people make their own impression" -Church signboard in Arizona
I hope I am more than a carbon copy of anybody! A lot of people see me as loud and stubborn. I am, and I'm not really interested in changing, either. I look and sound so much like my mother, I feel like I have to fight with everything I have to be myself (whoever that is!). My mom is a good person. Her good qualities way outweigh the things that bug the crap out of me about her. But I'm not her, I'm me, and it's important that the distinction be made.
I haven't been doing great with my goals, but I haven't completely failed, either. I've given up soda except for medicinal purposes. You know, nothing fixes a raging headache better than a nice, syrupy Coke. And I haven't moved on to the physical part of my journey yet, but I'm getting there!
Last night I found a scale that will (ALMOST) weigh me. I have probably 15 lbs. to lose before I reach the maximum it will read, but that's no biggie. Maybe by September I'll be able to use it, I hope!
I hope I am more than a carbon copy of anybody! A lot of people see me as loud and stubborn. I am, and I'm not really interested in changing, either. I look and sound so much like my mother, I feel like I have to fight with everything I have to be myself (whoever that is!). My mom is a good person. Her good qualities way outweigh the things that bug the crap out of me about her. But I'm not her, I'm me, and it's important that the distinction be made.
I haven't been doing great with my goals, but I haven't completely failed, either. I've given up soda except for medicinal purposes. You know, nothing fixes a raging headache better than a nice, syrupy Coke. And I haven't moved on to the physical part of my journey yet, but I'm getting there!
Last night I found a scale that will (ALMOST) weigh me. I have probably 15 lbs. to lose before I reach the maximum it will read, but that's no biggie. Maybe by September I'll be able to use it, I hope!
# posted by SalGal @ 7:56 PM 
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I bought a bunch of crap at the store today. The boys were complaining that there were no snacks, so I really over did it. Now I have to keep myself from eating them. (sigh)
When I was at my mom's last week, she said something to the effect of..."you really should do something about your weight. If you knew how sick you're going to be later in life, you'd do something about it now." Does she think I'm an idiot? Does she think I have no idea how huge I am or how sick I am right now? What is the answer? I have no idea.
This is going to sound REALLY stupid, and bad, but I've always dreamed of being bulemic. I've never tried it, because I'm afraid I couldn't quit, but I really do feel that desperate. The surgery was the light at the end of the tunnel, but now that the insurance has refused to pay, I feel like I'm sinking into a big black hole. Supposedly, Heavenly Father loves us just like we are, but I can't imagine him being all to thrilled with the way I treat my "temple".
Sorry for the long comment....
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When I was at my mom's last week, she said something to the effect of..."you really should do something about your weight. If you knew how sick you're going to be later in life, you'd do something about it now." Does she think I'm an idiot? Does she think I have no idea how huge I am or how sick I am right now? What is the answer? I have no idea.
This is going to sound REALLY stupid, and bad, but I've always dreamed of being bulemic. I've never tried it, because I'm afraid I couldn't quit, but I really do feel that desperate. The surgery was the light at the end of the tunnel, but now that the insurance has refused to pay, I feel like I'm sinking into a big black hole. Supposedly, Heavenly Father loves us just like we are, but I can't imagine him being all to thrilled with the way I treat my "temple".
Sorry for the long comment....
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